La vita va avanti

la vita va avanti. life goes on.

recently ive been thinking, well reminiscing, about the past. i'm not one to say i regret things, because at one point in my life i wanted it. i hold memories close and dear, the good ones as well as the tough ones. i cherish the friends ive been blessed to continue close relationships with, and those who've drifted away. i was talking to my mother the other day about life and all of its changes. i dont give her enough credit for the advice and wisdom she gives me, haha probably without even knowing it.

the past year has been a liberating one for me, yet its had its utterly terrifying moments. leaving home, my family, and the majority of my close friends, being thrown into a completely new rhythm, and having to make decisions solely by myself was overwhelming to say the least. but extremely exhilarating. those difficult moments i could not have gotten through without my beloved friends, so i thank them again for that.

"growing up" sure has come quite fast and the more independent of a person i grow into be, the more i realize it is the people i surround myself with, learn from, and listen to, that shapes me into the person i am becoming. ive had so many worries in my life, what is the right school for me, what to do with the rest of my life and what i want my career to be. finally feeling like a lightbulb has gone off in my head, and i can actually breathe and be excited about starting classes again in a few weeks is such a relief. its funny to think that i never considered design as a possible career for me; ive been obsessed with art since i was a little girl and took every possible class having to do with it in highschool.

this is kind of a rambling post, mainly me expressing a bunch of jumbled emotions ive had running through my head the past couple of days. i guess my point, well points, of this post are to express how grateful i am for my friends and to acknowledge my new found sense of self. the confidence and sureness i feel about my future and hopefully, everything will work itself out the way God has planned it to.